So, I was bullied throughout elementary school it slowly progressed back then. It seemed to have stopped after elementary school. I started letting my guard down a bit. I thought that the bullying was over. And for a while it was.
 Recently I've become agitated and on high alert. I've gotten less sleep and have had a lot of panic attacks that I've some how managed to hide. Now I'm starting to wonder if this is the beginning of the bullying again. Now, you're probably wondering how it started, well, I'm getting to that.
 Monday, I was chocked by a "friend". It reminded me of my past wit bullies because one of them would choke me. I stopped trying to sleep. I started staying up until I literally passed out. I told someone, not wanting the bullying to start again, on Wednesday. Since Monday I haven't stopped looking behind me and jumping when someone taps my shoulder or something. Yesterday, the person who choked me chased me into the girl's rest rooms at school(this was reported today) because I told on her. She made a huge scene and made most of my "friends" side with her. I barely let anyone hug me anymore. I only let those I trust hug me really. So, today I had to deal with people bugging me. Her(the person who choked me) friends(they're not my friends anymore) kept telling me to go talk to her and crap, while she kept yelling things(I didn't bother to listen to) at me. Then after school she called me a whore. I came on here wanting to forget it and ended up having to block her account. She had sent me a note saying that I deserved to suffer and die.
 I feel like the bullying has begun again. People keep saying that it'll blow over eventually, but what if it doesn't? It will never be over for me. Bullying left a deep scar on me in elementary school, not a scar that you could see but a mental one. I know that this time it will leave a deeper scar because people I trusted were involved and they tainted the trust I once had. My emotions are sending me over the brink again and I've come really close to cutting again, but I've managed  not to. My panic attacks are getting harder and harder to hide. People are starting to notice my paranoia.
 They always pointed out my flaws, but I feel like they're blaming all of this on me. They blamed a lot on me anyway, but is this girl's assaulting me with words really my fault? Am I starting to be bullied again? Do I really deserve to suffer and die? Is this the end or the beginning?